It seems like everything I'm doing the last little bit is 'again', old journeys that were derailed and now I'm picking back up.
Another one... fitness, health, and just over all being in better shape.
It's kinda weird for me. I'm trying to get back into a routine but, I'm so out of what anyone would call a "typical" routine these days that it's just really really hard to develop one. Who knows at what point it might change again and I'm so easily derailed. Well, I'm trying like crazy not to get derailed again and with a little from God above in the energy and motivation department and maybe the will power department too I'll get there.
It's funny actually I just read 1 Corinthians this morning and Paul is writing to the people of Corinth and in 9:25-27 he is talking about exercising he says "Every athlete exercises self-control in all things. They do it to receive a perishable wreath, but we an imperishable. So I do not run aimlessly; I do not box as one beating the air. But, I discipline my body and keep it under control, lest after preaching to others I myself should be disqualified. " I personally thought that was pretty awesome. Here you have the apostle Paul telling people that athletes run with a purpose, to win. They use self control to be the best in their sport and here he is saying I discipline my body too but, I do it for other reasons. One of which is because if he lets his body go and he can't discipline himself he can't be a good teacher. He's going around telling folks how to live so he has to 'practice what he's preaching' and that includes eating right and taking care of himself.
For me I need a little help. We don't eat right. Life happens. I'm at the barn too late. I'm tired. I worked hard. I worked out hard. I deserve a treat. I have a plethora of excuses as to why I don't have to eat right. When the reality is I'm a food addict (just like any other type of addict) I don't know when to stop and I don't know when to say no. Unlike other types of addicts food is a requirement to live so it's not like alcohol where you can remove it from the house or drugs, or even sex, where you can remove the temptation. Food is quite literally a source of life without it we literally die. So ... I need help.
Losing weight is a 'simple science' (if only it were a simple process) less calories in, more calories out for a deficient of 3500 which = 1 pound. Now, for someone who's 500 lbs you might be able to do that in a day for the smaller versions it's harder to achieve.
Let me back up here for a second. When my 2nd child was born I was over weight. I have battled my weight my entire life. I was never one of those tiny women. I was always a more athletically built type. I've had big legs my entire life because believe it or not you use your legs when you ride horses and when you ride horses every single day you build your leg muscles. So anyway.. I hit 13 ish my mom was back in school I was home during the summer instead of at the pool and I learned all about day time TV (Days of our Lives, and Santa Barbara mostly) and eating. We didn't fuss and fight i was too busy watching the little 12inch black n white tv in the kitchen while I ate little debbie cakes. That summer I plumped up. Every summer after that I went up a pantsize till I was 16 and I wore a size 16 until my 20's. I went up and down and up and down and up and down and battled the same 15 lbs for years. My average weight was 225. When my 1st baby was born I was 28. I was in school full time at night, and working full time during the day and taking care of my baby in between. It was MISERABLE but I only had a year left and I wasn't about to get derailed again. Then I graduated in December nearly passed out as I stood to get my diploma to which I shortly discovered I was pregnant again. Fuel was as high then as it is now. I wasn't making a big salary and I only had my degree for a few months. Where I worked didn't offer short term employment so I ended up leaving my job to be a stay at home mom. By the time I paid fuel, and daycare for 2 I would have been paying them to let me work and it just wasn't worth it.
Being home during that time man. The kids ate. I ate. Facebook was new then. I was new to social media. I watched tv played with my kids, and ate. That was about it. I was large and in charge. Resse cups.. man I was addicted to them the mini ones you know the little fat round ones not the big 2 packs. I hit close to 300lbs and went to visit a friend of mine for lunch. I had 1 shirt. 1 that fit and it was tight. I was soooooo embarrassed and I could tell they didn't know what to think or say. It was bad.
I vowed to lose weight. I did. 20lbs at least because I got myself out of that 2x shirt and into a 1x which for me was at minimum 20lbs. Then I got on the scale. 267. 267lbs and I had already lost a bunch. I broke down. Then and there. I'm like 5'5 1/2" (i'm taking my 1/2) 267 is BIG for me. I have 1 picture from that time period. 1. and, I hid myself behind my baby (oh I'm sticking out all around him but, I tried).
I vowed then to get the weight off. I tried everything. Crash diets. Diet pills. All types of things. I finally got back to my 220 after about 2 years. Then I started working again. By now 1 had started school and the other could go to daycare. It was part time and project work to start with. I was still trying to find my way but, I had a wardrobe that fit and, a start. That was all I needed. A good solid starting point.
So long story short over about 4 years with a whole lot of trial and error I learned what worked for me and lost 110 lbs. At my lowest I hit 155 which was pretty difficult for me to maintain cause well, I like to eat. I drifted back up to 160-163 and stayed there for several years. I was in the best shape of my life mentally, physically, emotionally.
What worked for me? Exercise. I know. I know. Most people hate exercise. Sometimes I do too. My biggest thing is I always feel better afterwards. The routine I was in at the time... I was getting up super early working out for about an hour before work (30 minutes minimum depending on my time constraints and how I felt) then I'd get ready, get the kids ready, we'd head out for our day. I'd hit the gym at work or walk outside for a while and then back at home for the evening maybe get some more workout time maybe not. Most days I got anywhere from 30 minutes to 3 hours of exercise.
I was watching shows like Biggest Loser and Extreme Weightloss, I was researching nutrition, I grew up on beans and taters y'all, green beans were at ever meal and usually fried sliced potatoes were on the menu a couple times a week. I had no clue what food nutrition was. I am completely addicted to chocolate. I had to switch from milk chocolate to dark chocolate and learn to like the dark so that I could get past just sitting and eating it all, all the time. I had to make swaps like buying snacks for the kids that I want eat like Oreo's they like them, I don't. It's a win win. Well until they want something I can't so no too then one of us is going to loose. But... thus is life. HA!
Sooooo of course supplements came into the picture. I was nutritionally deprived. Struggling with my thyroid and hormones. Everything your body does naturally to control hunger mine wasn't. I had no idea what a 'full que' was or what hunger over thirst and boredom were. I had to relearn everything we learn as toddlers and it was not easy.
Over time the products I liked either changed or went away and I got away from using them. Then when I got remarried I got injured and I got away from exercising. Then I was taking some medicine that made me gain weight uncontrollably (never taking that again) and well here I am 209 AGAIN.
It Sucks!! I fought so hard for so long to stay under 200 and the last year did me in. Working from home. Being at my parents more. Drinking sweet tea. Little things that add the calories back in and pack the pounds on. Even though I'm active 6-8 hours every single day. Doesn't matter. Not elevating that heart rate enough for my body to burn the fat. My body doesn't function with a high or fast metabolism it is slow and it takes a lot for me to burn anything. Also, I'm over 40 now and my body is arguing with me about everything. Holding on to every pound. Thyroid out of control. Hormones all over the place. Stress through the roof.
I broke down ordered me some products and I'm thrilled that they will be here in a day or two.
If you've read any of my blog posts you'll see where all this fits in (Q Sciences My Newest Venture; Stepping Out On Faith; New Beginnings, The New You etc). I'm already taking Q Core and Q Vitalize and I love them. I can feel my energy picking up. I've been taking them for about 3 weeks now and there's a noticeable change. My weight has changed some too. I'm down a couple pounds but... I'm doing that weekend swing. We all do it at times. It's that unintentional get lax over the weekend. Forget to log your calories, skip a workout, sit for too long, something, anything. Or worse, food rewards for a good effort all week. All of those things kill your progress and I've fallen for it ever weekend.
So.... I took the plunge. I'm trying something new., I ordered the Q Trim Q Complete Vanilla and Chocolate Pack. I love chocolate and I've found with the meal replacement powders I've tried in the past they often go good in my coffee which I'm drinking anyway...
I'm so excited. I can't wait to get them and start trying them out.
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